Canceled Shows

Everyone knows that I am a movie and TV freak. I've accepted it as a creative outlet for me instead of looking at it as laziness and addiction to media.:) I have friends who don't even have a TV or who have gone without Cable for a whole YEAR. I'm just not that person and it's okay. Through my love of all that is the Media Today I have just recently been re-visited by a bunch of shows that I really enjoyed, but that have been canceled for one reason or another. WHY have they been canceled? WHAT about them wasn't good enough? I, personally, think that many of them could come back today-in the time of summer seasons as well as fall seasons-and live a full and exciting life. This is so sad because some of these shows were just so GOOD and actually had a lot of depth to them. Such as:

"Tru Calling"-a show about a woman who works at the morgue and finds dead people asking her for help and then gets her day re-wound so that she can try to save them Eliza Dushku is the star of this show as Tru (I feel a connection here not only because I LOVE Eliza, but because TRU is my favorite name for a girl and has been for 10 years) and has a great supporting cast that included Jason Priestley half way through the season. Still, the show didn't make it more than one season in 2003.






"Miracles"-this one stars Skeet Ulrich (of SCREAM original fame) and Angus McFadyen (YA YA SISTERHOOD) as searchers for Miracles. Skeet's character has been touched by God in a way that he can't explain-seeing "God is Now Here" formed from his own blood (this is called Hemography) where others who have experienced this have seen "God is Nowhere". The show only made it one season in 2003-TODAY I think it could have made it. This show was produced by the same guy who produced "Angel" and "Buffy", which were much more successful.








"Dark Angel"- this show was Jessica Alba's launching pad. It's about a young genetically engineered girl who escapes from the lab that she grew up in to live a life as a fugitive from the secret army people who made her in the post "pulse" world of 2020 in Seattle. She teams up with "Eyes Only" who is a vigilante trying to expose all the bad people who have found a footing in the mess that is the world of the future. It's all sci-fi and action with a little bit of heart and it was a great show! It made it 2 seasons in 2000 and 2001. Still, there was no real end to the show.








"Jericho"- a much more recent show of 2006 and 2008 this one is a trip because the fans actually protested enough to bring the show back after it was canceled at the end of the first season. It came back in 2008 with the same cast and a continuation of the original plot-a post-nuclear United States trying to start over again after all the major cities have been bombed by some unknown group/source. The 2nd season ended with some resolution, but lots of unanswered questions. I really wish they would bring this one back! It was an AWESOME show and pretty realistic, actually. Great ensemble cast too- Skeet Ulrich, Ashely Scott, Gerald McCraney, Pamela Reed, and many more.






"Firefly" - Another of Joss Whedon's shows ("Buffy", "Angel", "Dollhouse") this one brings together sci-fi and fantasy into one with an awesome cast and a great storyline of a world of the future that has transportation between planets and a bit of an old world Western feel to it. The show was canceled after the first season, but, once again, fans won out and the show was turned into a movie so that we could get some resolution. The movie-SERENITY-has all ready become a cult classic and did help relieve the tension of questions unanswered, but we all still miss what could have been a good 9 year run. Instead it only lasted through 2002.

The list goes on and on with Sci-fi and fantasy losing out more often than not, but there are regular dramas and comedies that get canceled as well. It hurts my creative side to see such good material go to waste, but, I know it will keep happening again and again. At least they will live on in our memories and on DVD.:)

Choices

We have been in Maine for 6 months now and I have finally cycled back to the dilemma that I always felt hanging over me in MS...I miss my family. THIS time it's my SOUTHERN Family instead of my Northern Family, though. How do I make this work? Here in Maine I am closer to the people I have known and loved the longest and more of them, I think, but I still feel this little bit of a rip-a disconnection between me and those that we left behind in the South and it hurts.

Am I just overly sensitive to these feelings or am I just really bad at handling them? I want to spend hours making sure that my nieces and nephews remember me, but I don't really know what to say. It's so different having to talk on the phone or through e-mail instead of in person. It's just not that same. I miss Janet and Perry and Dad and Lisa and Middle Earth and Laura and Lily and Natalie and Jan...there's so much and just so little time. I Feel like if I come to grips with this and accept it then I am not trying hard enough, but if I don't accept it then I am stuck and in emotional limbo.

I really do think I'm one of those hyper sensitive people and this is why it is hurting me so much, but I just wish that there were a way to relieve some of the disconnection.

Was it the right choice to move away from the South because there are more people I missed here? Or were there more people down South who needed me? How do I know I'm making the right choices?

Friends

I know this is a horrible thing to say or even think, but sometimes I truly feel like I have too many friends. Now, don't get me wrong because every single one of my hundreds of friends are wonderful in all their own ways and there's nothing wrong with them or having them, it's just that sometimes I feel so very overwhelmed:


with staying in contact with them
keeping up on the stories of their lives
comforting them
letting them know that I care
sending birthday cards
going to weddings and showers
remembering girlfriends' or boyfriends' names
and sometimes even remembering what state they live in these days...

the list goes on and on. We all know that I am just one of these people who LIKES to care, who THRIVES on caring, but now that I am home and I am so close to so many of those people I had lost touch with I am finding it hard to fit them all in. I feel horrible because I haven't texted Liz to see how she is recovering from her breakup, or texted Molly to make sure she's not freaking out about her pregnancy, or Heather to see how her first week of work went...and then there's planning Molly's baby shower and spending time with mom and driving to see Linda because she is so sick and remembering that Diana and Bryan and Rhea are only here for the summer and I STILL haven't spent time with any of them. OH and was it really 2 months ago that Jessica, Scottie, Robert and I had dinner and promised to do it again soon?!

I just feel like I am being pulled in so many directions! And I feel so bad that I'm not being that best and awesome friend that I always used to be. Emily says that, if they really needed me, they would call ME....so I shouldn't worry and should only do what I can and not stress about it, but, when I need someone the most, I always felt guilty asking them for help so I wouldn't call them. I want to be the one that reaches out, remembers, and helps!

Being married makes it so very different because, despite my love for all my friends and family, my life with Robert comes first...and work gets in the way a lot too. Really, all I want to do is spend time with my 5 best girl friends, my husband, and my 4 cats, and maybe go out a couple times a month to experience something new. Is that so much to ask?

The problem I'm having is letting GO of that feeling of guilty that I can so easily fall into...
but, really, THEY aren't calling me either, are they?